I wasn't going to write a "this is what I'm thankful for" post. I really wasn't. It's not that I'm not thankful, but sometimes listing the things that I'm thankful for on the interwebs makes those things feel less special. But as I was thinking about and looking at pictures from the past year, I got quite a lump in my throat. Last Thanksgiving, my life was drastically different. I finally gave up the hope of breastfeeding my babies. I was still waking up at least twice from midnight to 6 am. I lived in an apartment complex that was unfriendly and unwelcoming. Josh was working a job where (I think) his skills were completely being taken advantage of and he wasn't getting the credit (or pay) that he deserved. I was missing Logan. I was missing my job. I was unmotvated and gaining weight.
But yet, I had so much to be grateful for.
Twelve months later, I wish I could illustrate how different I feel. I realize that not breastfeeding is nothing to ever feel guilty about. If I wake up during the night, it's usually only once. I live in a very, very friendly and inviting area. In fact, Tuesday night was spent meeting a few new people and going shopping, laughing and chatting until midnight with two new, amazing friends that I would consider to be among the 'best' of them. Josh still isn't working his brains like he'd want to, but he's getting paid a good wage and works for a great company with a lot of promotional potential. As much as I still love and miss Logan, my old job and the people I worked for/with, I'm completely content and happy with where we're at. And I'm a lot more motivated and I'm actually loosing weight. Not a ton, but a pound here and a pound there is making me feel pretty great considering I gained over 20 last winter.
Besides all of that, I have my basic things such as my family, religion, a roof over my head, food in my fridge (although, there isn't much of that because Josh cleaned out our fridge and it was pathetic how much rotten crap we had to get rid of. Oops...) and I could go on and on and on.
And just because I feel that every good post needs a picture, here's one. I chose this one because it made me laugh out loud and I thought it was perfect balance to this super cheesy post. And really, I laughed so hard at it that it's my newest profile picture on facebook. This is so, so typical...
Ok, so now that we've eaten our pumpkin pie, can I come out of the Christmas closet now? I better be able to because I've been secretly acting like it's Christmas for well over a month now.
:)
One last thing. You must see The Muppets right now. Stop blog stalking and go see it. I literally laughed myself to tears twice and had a perma-grin the rest of the time. I almost fist pumped, but I thought that was a little weird, so I refrained. I'm not even kidding you guys, it was probably my favorite movie I've EVER seen. Just thinking about the first part that made me cry makes me crack up.
Best movie in the history of movies.